Friday, March 4, 2011
Sigh, i hate this now; boy
I've decided to post 1 post everytime i cried. Because i realised, everytime i cry, i can pour out my troubles here, makinqq my heart feel a little more relieve then keepinqq thinqs to myself. Lets talk bout today. Hmm.. Hai Sports Carnival, pasir ris park. It was okay, just that with 7 casualties, 1 hospitalised and 2 sent to their parents. Hope their okay now. =/
Today damnn busy lah, basically. Until no time sms till end of carnival. Then went out with anne, kerrell, marcus(kerrell's bro) and Gary(Kerrell's "Boyfriend"). Went to arcarde to relieve myself. Then play dao shiok lerh, go whitesands walkwalk, spent alot of money lorh, tsk. Then went home lerh, damnn tired, jiu slept for awhile.
Woke up with a sms from darlinqq, a kinda disappointinqq msg, but i got through it. Thenn jiu suddenly feel abit nausea, vomitted =/. Thenn now okay lerh. Butthen sigh, i cried lahh. Idk what's wrong with me. I should understand him mahh, i should fuhckingg put myself in his shoes. Butthen idk whats wrongg with me also, cant even put myself in his shoes. Sighh. Damnn disappointed with myself. I really just want some time with him. But apparently, its kinda too much to ask now. He must concentrate in his studies, not me. Butthen, sighh..
I really didn't wanted this lah, seriously. Everythinqq was so perfect last time. Now everythinq is like shyt. Idk how lonqq we can last, i really pray and hope and wish that we can really last lonqq. I mean seriously. The way we are now, idk. I just don't feel secured about it. I really want back the sense of security i had the last time. Sighh. I really gotta bear this in mind "He don't have time for me". But everytime i think about this, i'll just breakdown and cry. I'm sorry..
-xiiaoqii-
I've decided to post 1 post everytime i cried. Because i realised, everytime i cry, i can pour out my troubles here, makinqq my heart feel a little more relieve then keepinqq thinqs to myself. Lets talk bout today. Hmm.. Hai Sports Carnival, pasir ris park. It was okay, just that with 7 casualties, 1 hospitalised and 2 sent to their parents. Hope their okay now. =/
Today damnn busy lah, basically. Until no time sms till end of carnival. Then went out with anne, kerrell, marcus(kerrell's bro) and Gary(Kerrell's "Boyfriend"). Went to arcarde to relieve myself. Then play dao shiok lerh, go whitesands walkwalk, spent alot of money lorh, tsk. Then went home lerh, damnn tired, jiu slept for awhile.
Woke up with a sms from darlinqq, a kinda disappointinqq msg, but i got through it. Thenn jiu suddenly feel abit nausea, vomitted =/. Thenn now okay lerh. Butthen sigh, i cried lahh. Idk what's wrong with me. I should understand him mahh, i should fuhckingg put myself in his shoes. Butthen idk whats wrongg with me also, cant even put myself in his shoes. Sighh. Damnn disappointed with myself. I really just want some time with him. But apparently, its kinda too much to ask now. He must concentrate in his studies, not me. Butthen, sighh..
I really didn't wanted this lah, seriously. Everythinqq was so perfect last time. Now everythinq is like shyt. Idk how lonqq we can last, i really pray and hope and wish that we can really last lonqq. I mean seriously. The way we are now, idk. I just don't feel secured about it. I really want back the sense of security i had the last time. Sighh. I really gotta bear this in mind "He don't have time for me". But everytime i think about this, i'll just breakdown and cry. I'm sorry..
-xiiaoqii-
Keep your heart with me, memories will always be withh me ♥
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